I think the worst feeling in this world is when people make it seems like im hard to love. You claim you love me and then you leave me feeling like shit. As if loving me is a chore instead of something you do sincerely. And when I get distant/annoyed/upset, you don’t even make an effort to repair it. You’ll pretend like nothing is wrong, until I had to be the one to point it out. And when that happens, you’ll make excuses like “it’s not that I don’t care about your feelings, im tired.” or “I don’t even understand why you’re mad, I didn’t do anything” and to make things bad, you would even go to sleep knowing that im not okay, but whatever, it’s not like what I feel even matters to you right? I don’t know. Sometimes all I need is just a simple reassurance or something, anything that shows you truly want me in your life, but yet you make it seems like I am asking for the moon or anything. I’m just so tired. I shouldn’t have to ask someone who said they love me to be thoughtful. That’s what loving is supposed to be, gestures and words and actions that show you, over and over, that you on their mind and in their heart. But you can’t even do that for me. All I get is just bare minimum.
